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The Gay Teen Stories That Have Grabbed My Heart
All Here On Gary
Beyond The Rain
A Gay Teen Love Story - Overcoming The Barriers - A Short Novel ♂♂
This is the story of Billy Carmedy and Aaron Sorensen. It’s tough enough to be a straight boy in a small town high school looking for the love of your life. But at least your possible loves are all out in the open. It’s much, much tougher when you’re a 17 year-old gay boy, part of only 10% or less of the school population and your possible loves are all in hiding, just as you are, due to the fear of being socially ostracized, laughed at, condemned and physically harassed by your peers. Add to this mix the complete rejection of Aaron by his parents due to religious bigotry when he trustingly came out to them and you have the challenging but beautiful story of how two personable and intelligent gay boys circuitously find each other and somehow survive. If you're looking for descriptions of hot teen gay sex, this is not the story for you. Click on the image or Chapter 1, to begin:
Chapter 1 Chapter 2 Chapter 3 Chapter 4 Chapter 5 Chapter 6 Chapter 7 Chapter 8 Chapter 9 Epilogue
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Days of Silence
A Gay Teen Love Story ♂♂
A Gay Teen Short Story ♂♂ - It’s been four years since Justin kissed his best friend Lucas when they were both just 12. Then Justin, afraid of what it meant, afraid of how he felt, afraid of what it made him, ran and has been running from and avoiding Lucas for these four years. The thing about running is that no matter how fast you run, the past always catches up with you, and when faced with his past and all the things he’s missed, Justin finds he doesn’t want to run anymore. Now Justin wants to try to make things right with Lucas; he wants his best friend back. But maybe it's too late. Maybe Lucas has moved on. Read the story to find out if Justin is successful. This story isn't only about internalized homophobia and the hurtful things it leads gay kids to do to themselves and others. It is much more about truth, love and hurt and coming to terms with those things, forgiving yourself, and loving yourself enough to hold yourself accountable. This is a beautifully written gay teen short story by Viv. Enjoy. Click Here or on the icon to read the story.
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My Best Friend
by Gee Whillickers
A Gay Teen Coming of Age Story ♂♂
What's it like for a young teen of barely 14, trying to cope with all the normal problems of adolescence, and wrestling with the realization that he's gay on top of all that? Luke struggles with accepting himself and with the idea of coming out, as well as trying to find a boy who he can love and be loved back in return. Narrated from the unique viewpoint of his loyal dog Worf, find out how he deals with it all and how those important to his life help. Click Here or on the icon to read the story.
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Made Me This Way
by Grant Bentley
Gay Teen Short Story ♂♂
Story Copyrighted by Grant Bentley © 2009. The story is re-hosted here with the author's permission. All Rights Reserved.
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And Two Christmas Stories
A Gay Christmas Carol
A Short Novel - Pat Righteous was a pious and honorable conservative minister of God - or so he thought. He did not agree with certain things including the acceptance of homosexuals, granting gays equal rights, or the approval of non-traditional forms of marriage. Follow this tale modeled after “A Christmas Carol” by Charles Dickens as Pat Righteous takes the part of Scrooge. The Three Spirits have many things to teach our Pat Righteous especially since it turns out to Pat's profound surprise that his own adolescent son is gay. Click on the image or Chapter 1, to begin:
Chapter 1 Chapter 2 Chapter 3 Chapter 4 Chapter 5
Based on an original story of the
same name by Bill W; Copyright © 2000-2009 by BW, All Rights Reserved; used by
permission; modeled after “A Christmas Carol” by Charles Dickens
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by Paul Schroder
A Short Story - Halim, age 12, is keeping watch over his fathers flock of sheep on a very special night. A year earlier his faith in God was destroyed when he witnessed a violent rape and murder. He has grown bitter and angry and unable to understand what sort of God allows horrible things to happen to wonderful people. Can his faith be restored? This story reminds us that the attempted male-on-male gang rape of the two visitors (Angels) in the Genesis 19 narrative of Sodom & Gomorrah has nothing to do with modern day loving and monogamous gay and lesbian relationships. Click Here or on the icon to read the story.
Click for Coming Out in Middle School - by By Benoit Denizet-Lewis - New York Times Magazine
It All Started With A Kiss - source: milkboys.org
My Other Favorite Gay Teen Stories
(alphabetical order-All stories
complete, except maybe Comicality's which may go on for eternity, ha-ha)
pictures of gay teen boys kissing
Name; Author of Story (Website); Ages of Main Characters; Story Is About:
8th Grade (in 3 parts); Cole Parker (Awesome Dude); 13; Popular, athletic Brad and shy, studious & friendless Danny get together over Algebra & big problems with their teacher, Mrs. Graedon.
At The End
Of The String; Simon
Jimenez (Awesome Dude); 8 to 17; "I was on my way to talk to Brody when
the car hit me". . . . . . "A dark figure emerged from the shadows, half-lit by
the glittering streetlight and the pale glow of the moon". . . . . . .
"huge black wings erupted out of her back like a blooming rose. She was
beautiful." . . . . "I knew who this woman was. 'Are you Death?'" . . . . .
“'Most people have something holding them down to this world,' she said, 'like a
tether on a balloon. It could be something material, a person, or persons, an
unfinished goal. There are many reasons to want to keep living. I wonder,
Harbor, what is yours?'
I smiled just thinking about it. 'His name’s Brody.'
Her hand stroked my cheek so gently I wanted to cry. 'Tell me about him,' she whispered."
And Harbor does. And you will be transfixed as Harbor's first friend comes to life in his memory in this Coming-of-Age Tale with a gay twist. Enjoy.
Between Frost and Flames; Lil' Octopus; (The Shack Out Back's Summer Collection 2012); 15; Ethan, 15 and gay, has been raised in a difficult family and has been held in his aunt's Margaret suffocating iron grip for all of his life. He has been made to feel worthless and ashamed; with no freedom, only obedience. Yet this begins to change one day when he meets a boy named Jared at his high school who has drawn the meaningful letter 'C' on his right hand. Now Ethan has hope but his behavioral changes are seen as an act of defiance in his aunt's eyes until she catches Ethan and Jared kissing out back under the school's library windows. Then Ethan's life is unexpectedly transformed. Enjoy.
Do You Remember When You Colored The Sky Orange?; Grasshopper (iomfats); 17; Two gay boys, intolerant families and high school.
Downpour; Hylas (Codey's World); 17/18; For three years, Scott had redefined himself from a sweet, caring and kind boy to one with a menacing figure of bitterness and impudence all because of fear, of falling in love with his best friend Tim, who was a boy. All because he couldn't accept that he was gay. Now, Tim is moving away and Scott may never see him again. This is his last chance to confess his love and to reconcile the rift he had created between the two of them. How will he do that, and how will Tim react? There is only one way to find out... Review by Lil' Octopus, May 2013.
I Just Love Thanksgiving, Don't You?; Grant Bentley (Codey's World); 14; This is about how 14-year-old Jody figured out that he was gay, thought by thought, happening by happening, and what he did to go out and unsuccessfully find a boyfriend, ha-ha. It was only when he had reached a dead end, coincidently enough on Thanksgiving, that things started to look up. You'll enjoy reading this funny but thought provoking short story.
In The Blink Of An Eye; Grasshopper (iomfats); From 7 to Old Age; 2 lonely gay boys - One rich little boy and one poor little boy meet down by the river bank and it completely changes the trajectory of their lives.
Issues, Envelopes, & Homophobes; phrineas flogg (Fiction Press); 16; This is a series of short letters between two students who are unwilling pen pals in the same high school but different English classes. And right off the bat the initial letter writer tells the other that he's gay to discourage the reader from responding. But he does and we're off. This is a great read of 28 super short chapters which can be finished in about an hour. There is a surprise ending.
It’s What ‘Real’ Men Do, You Know; Grant Bentley (Codey's World); 18, 19; Jake, a lonely young gay freshman, bitter and hardened by the homophobic anger and hate that surrounded him growing up, meets Chance, a personable but lonely young sophomore with Cerebral Palsy isolated for no other reason than he was seen to be different. Can they offer each other the one thing they both need at college and in life? Love.
Jenner & Brown (in 4 chapters); Daniel Self; (iomfats); 14; This is a beautiful and well-written British boarding school tale of how two 14 year old gay boys meet as new roommates and develop a romantic relationship including some very intimate sex. My attraction to the story is the reaction of both sets of parents when they find out that their boys are queer. Every gay boy dreams of hearing something like this from his mother:
Daddy and I spoke about you and Chris last night. We both agreed that we would talk with you today, and we both feel the same way. Your happiness and your future are the two things that matter most to us in the world. If your relationship with Chris was adversely affecting your school work then we might have been worried, but it's not, in fact, if anything the opposite seems to be true, and obviously Chris makes you very happy, happier than we have seen you. Christopher is a boy, and I suppose we always assumed that it would be a girl that would be lucky enough to have you for a boyfriend, but as I said, you're a grown up boy now. You know about yourself more than anyone else, and no one has the right to challenge you in that. We love you, and you have always made us proud and that has not and will not be any different because we know that you are gay.
Kind of takes your breath away, doesn't it, because we normally fear the worst when a gay boy comes out to his parents. Enjoy the story.
Just Out of Reach; Comicality (Comicality's Shack Out Back - Gay Authors); 17; This story deals with the heartbreak that most every gay boy has to deal with-falling in love with a straight boy. But it's much more complicated when the boy also happens to be your best friend. There is a minimal amount of sexual content in this story but how it plays out very much serves the whole purpose of the story.
On The High Plains of Wyoming; Cole Parker (AwesomeDude); 16; The first part of this awesome story seems to be a little slow, but there is a reason for laying this necessary foundation, which shows that gay 16-year-old Mason is an independent and skillful outdoorsman and marksman. Because when you get to day three of his four-day adventure out on the high plains and forests of western Wyoming, you will see how these skills are critical for him surviving this sometimes-violent drama. Since he was accidentally outed in this very conservative and small town when he was 9 years old by his then best friend Elam, Mason has been the subject of beatings and derision at school, without friends and generally ostracized. But he has overcome his shunned existence by dedicating his otherwise lonely hours to teaching himself how to be self-sufficient. Read this story to see if it's possible for him to get his best friend and a lot more back.
Out Of My League; Gee Whillickers (AwesomeDude); 15, 16; After reading this story you'll understand the ins and outs of ice hockey and get a feel for why it's the national sport of Canada, for all ages, from 2 to 92. You'll also understand why there are no gay ice hockey players there, oh wait . . . . . . . . maybe there are, and they're strapping teen boys secretly holding hands on the team bus. Enjoy. No sex.
I Say? by Graeme;
Something! by Grasshopper;
Did He Really
Say That? by Aaron;
Son Said by Dewey - 17; In order for a gay boy to come out to his
family and eventually introduce his boyfriend if he is so fortunate to find one,
he needs to say stuff. Then the parents need to respond and say stuff
too. And sometimes no one knows exactly what to say even when the family
is loving and accepting as these families turn out to be.
These stories from different angles about the same two "strong, masculine,
normal boys", Will and Aaron, are touching and humorous because there are so few
models to follow in the brave new world of increasing gay equality. No
Street Life; Graeme (DeweyWriter); 16; What made Craig try to kill himself? What circumstances led him to believe that becoming an underage boy prostitute was the only way that he could survive?
The Bully (In 3 parts); Cole Parker (AwesomeDude); 13-14; Life in The Hammil Academy - (A British Boarding School)-1970 - I recommend any and all of Cole Parker's Stories
The Gift; Graeme (DeweyWriter); 15; A loving Dad willingly gives something very special to his gay son after the boy attempts to kill himself.
The Meaning of Living; Dabeagle; 16/17; Everyone was doing it. Chris knew he should've gone home that night instead of going along with Bobby and the rest of the gang. But he didn't, and he got caught for vandalism - spray painting a elderly gay man's garage with unsightly drawings and homophobic taunts. By refusing to reveal the names of the other guilty teens who were with him at the time of the incident, Chris is sentenced to community service to help the older man, Mr. Grantham, with various jobs around the place until he agrees to come forward with the identity of the kids involved. As he is doing his work two important events happen: First, he meets and forms a solid friendship with the Grand Niece and Nephew of Mr. Grantham, Caitlynn and Evan. And secondly, Mr. Grantham slowly leads him to think about his actions, his thoughts and ideas about gay people, and eventually, the meaning of living. Caitlynn and Evan know about the vandalism, but not that Chris was involved. Though Chris is sexually attracted to Caitlynn, things get interesting when Chris discovers that Evan is gay. No sex. Enjoy. Review by Lil' Octopus, Oct. 2012.
Valentine's Day; Cole Parker (iomfats); 15; Cory is convinced he's straight and is so attracted to Marcie, but then he meets her future step-brother Robin at their Valentine's Day threesome dinner.
What Ya Doin' In the Dumpster?; Grasshopper (iomfats); 17; How a high school bully inadvertently became a gay matchmaker.
Whispers From The Past; Grasshopper (iomfats); 17; Brian learns to accept himself as a gay young man thanks to his father's mysterious cousin.
You Are Not Alone; Dewey (DeweyWriter; 15; Mike had just come back from spending 3 weeks with his uncle. Before the trip he had been a normal happy fun loving teenager. But now after his return, he has become impossible; he doesn't want to be touched, he refuses to talk about his trip or what's bothering him, he is constantly taking showers, he puts on thin, fake smiles for everybody, he hardly eats anything at meal times, he loses his temper so easily, and now he has nightmares every night. Can his best friend Paul on a month long visit figure out what has happened to cause this drastic change and help bring his friend back to the great person he was before the trip?
"Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter, and those who matter don't mind." - Dr. Seuss
Longer and Very Long Stories:
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Ages of Main Characters;
Story Is About:
A Time; Mihangel Hwntw (iomfats); Tom=1 to 5 & Kim=5 to 9; Tom=13/14 & Kim=17/18; This story takes place in part in a British boarding school and in the end involves two really likable teen boys who turn out to be serious boyfriends. Now you're probably thinking that you know what this story is all about, nonstop hot gay teen sex. No, actually there isn't any sex here for a couple of good reasons. Firstly we find out that Adrian (Kim) and Tom as little boys, were raised in brutal conditions as almost brothers in a World War II Japanese Internment Camp for civilian prisoners at Tai Po in the New Territories on the Chinese mainland (across from Hong Kong) from December 1941 to 1945. Thousands died of exposure, starvation and disease but somehow through heroic ingenuity and toughness, the boys and Tom's accepting parents made it out alive. So these kids weren't your typical suburban teens. Secondly the story deals with what it was like living in the early 1950's as gay teens in Great Britain where homosexuality was against the law in a serious way.
This is a gripping story that I read straight through in 6 hours which describes the horrific living conditions, torture, sickness, murder and rape that the Japanese soldiers inflicted on British and Australian troops and the captured civilians. If you don't like sad endings then don't start this story. But the beauty of this tale is seeing the depth of the love these two confident and talented boys have for each other in spite of super strict cultural conditions where it was virtually impossible to show their love for each other anywhere, except in the rare privacy of their homes. Because homosexuality was illegal in the British Isles in the 1950's, it was very questionable for two boys to even hug one another at a boarding school, let alone kiss or express their love physically in any other way in the dormitory. Remember that homosexuality was officially recognized as a mental illness up to 1973 and that the school based Gay-Straight Alliance Network wasn't founded until 1998 in the USA. This story reminds those who live in the West, just how far social acceptance and legal rights for gays and lesbians have come from those times when being an out of the closet gay meant you were either a social outcast or in jail. This is a truly riveting tale told by a very talented author. Enjoy. (Review by Gary Lynn, Oct. 2012)
Part Invention; Alan Dwight
(Awesome Dude); 13 to 18; It isn't sufficient to have loving parents. If
you are a freshly minted gay teenager coming to terms with your situation, then
you need tolerant and understanding parents.
Peter's life is overshadowed by the literally unmentionable death of his older
brother some seven years earlier. Not only is his mother still grieving to the
exclusion of Peter and his physical needs but also to the exclusion of
recognition of any successes he has achieved and of any problems he has in his
life... and he has problems.
For a start he is somewhat slight of build and late into puberty. In 1952 typical public schooling in America, neither characteristic is ideal. Besides having a life that revolves around his work at the library and singing in the Episcopal Cathedral Choir, he is also a somewhat gifted pianist. None of these interests can be expected to endear him to his classmates, not friends, he doesn't have any.
With the new school year comes Christian (never call me Chris) himself significantly different from other students in the school which you'll find out quickly once you get into Chapter 2. It takes a joint research project on whaling to bring them together and to break Christian out of his shell, They grow close and that's when tolerance and understanding are in short supply. They can share their music, but sharing more requires as much growth in their parents as it does in the two boys.
This is a well-crafted warm and gentle story with the detail in their lives that rounds them as characters and enough trials and vicissitudes to make you want to know how things turned out. It revolves around their lives and problems rather than sex, which lurks in the room but doesn't intrude. And remember that all this happens in 1952, when homosexuality was illegal and barely talked about.
Were boys ever this honest, trustworthy and with this much self-control? Not in my experience, and I was one, but I'm glad that Alan Dwight has found two that are. They made me feel good, and I'm the better for having read it. Some sex. Review by Solsticeman. (February, 2013)
Brittle as a Bird;
Ronyx; (The Mustard Jar); 11 to
18 plus; This is the story of hope even when all seems lost. This is not a
pretty story. It's hard to read because of all the blackness in Joey Carpenter's
life. It got so bad that Joey threw himself off a bridge in a spur of the moment
decision to kill himself. But he somehow had enough will to live that he
regretted doing it once he hit the water. A cop rescued him so he was given a
second chance at life. But the why as in why did he do it and the charting of
his slow and uneven road to recovery is what this story is all about.
His hellish nightmare of a life all started when his beloved Uncle Mike raped him when he was 11. His father then blamed both his uncle and Joey the victim when he caught them naked together. He then beat his son so badly that Joey begged him to just shoot him. And then slowly but surly his father, with his mother's quiet acquiescence removed his son from his own home and the family so that by the age of 16 Joey was living in the garage with no source of funds and with little or no contact with his parents. But then he even loses the garage and has nowhere to live but the street. This gay boy story will take you crisis by crisis down all the way to rock bottom where he has to rent his body, or at least his mouth, for sex on the street to earn any money to live on. And this includes the cheap wine and pot he buys which helps him forget that nobody cares whether he lives or dies. Remember that he's too young and with no address he can't get a regular job. He's an outcast at school where Gene Albright his main tormentor and everybody else knows what he does on the street to survive. But amazingly he does get good grades because he's smart and he's determined to show up his parents and school does relieve the boredom and empty spaces in his life. However he finally gets so depressed with his friendless and pointless existence that he even quits school. He believes that everything he touches turns to manure. Welcome to what rock bottom looks like.
He does truly feel completely friendless but in fact he has two unlikely but true friends, Ticker and Star who in the end are going to save his life. In fact his life was saved as a result of this conversation with Star:
“I don’t know what to do,” I [Joey] cried. “I never know what to do.”
[Star said,] “Then let me help you.”
I nodded. It was then that I realized that I had to trust someone. My life had spiraled so far out of control that I knew that I couldn’t save it by myself. I didn’t want to die, but I didn’t want to live the life I’d been living the past five years. After Uncle Mike, I had completely closed my life to anyone and everything. I had to trust someone. I trusted Star.
And the question is always with anybody, gay or straight, can Joey find someone to love and be loved to share his life with? Then he meets HIV positive, brittle as a bird Allen on the bridge, a lonely, sickly and tragic figure who even encourages Joey to jump to give Allen the courage to jump himself. Is there hope in this developing friendship, even after 24 year old Allen discovers what Joey does for a living? You will be transfixed following the unwinding of this tale. Yes, there is a middling amount of sexual activity in this story, but the story would be kind of empty without it. A Bridge to Yesterday is the follow up story and it is even better.
Cameron; vlista (gayauthors); 16-17; Cameron is a sixteen year old with problems. After his mother left, his father remarried and he values his new family much more than he does his son, to the point where Cameron is totally ignored. If you couple that with Cameron's involvement in drink and pot then the fact that he is gay seems the least of his problems. His one rock is Kyle who doesn't know that his best friend is gay.
Desert Dropping; DomLuka (DomLuka - Gay Authors); 16; Rory is gay and his Mom has just passed away and soon after the funeral his life is completely upended when he finds out that his Mom contacted the father that he never knew he had. Now, he's forced to live in the desert with a very unusual family he doesn't know, and a father he doesn't want to know. Friends will be made and the meaning of family will be found as Rory discovers that everything isn't so bad in the desert after all. There is some sex in the story but the story is not about sex; it is about Rory dealing with a whole new world of opportunities and challenges.
Dominoes; Cole Parker (Awesome Dude); 15; What if you were a very shy 15-year-old boy and a sophomore in high school and thought that you might be gay and then spilled all of your deepest darkest most embarrassing sexual secrets on the radio where many of your classmates were listening, and then your full name was accidentally mentioned? Would you be able to go back to that school? Would you want to even live another day? What would you do?
Duck Duck Goose; Cole Parker (Awesome Dude); 14, 15 - 16, 17; Don't let the childish nature of the title scare you off. The title is just the name of the pre-teen game the physical education coaches at this Southern California high school sometimes had their charges play so that 13 to 17 year olds could do stuff together where something other than age would decide the competitiveness of the activity, where the bigger boys wouldn't always win or hurt the smaller ones. So this was the game being played one day which changed the lives of two of the boys in it forever - 16 year old Matt Tucker a junior with loving parents and 14 year old Kevin Ingram, a freshman with an abusive father and a passive mother. Matt breaks Kevin's wrist in this supposedly non-violent game and so this very complicated up and down relationship takes off between Matt who has a hard time understanding that he's gay and Kevin who knows he is.
For the Love of Pete; Dewey (DeweyWriter); 12 to 17; This story is a classic. But I'll let you be the judge. Here is an excerpt from Chapter 1:
From the Heart; Codey; (Codey's World); Jeremy (10 - 18), Tony (8-16); Once upon a time there were two inseparable neighbor boys who spent their young lives together doing all the things that boys do growing up which included building a tree house and getting into the usual harmless trouble. These two boys, one gay, one straight, truly loved each other as if they were blood brothers. Hey, they even had a little ceremony which literally had them mixing their blood together. Then one day in their teens a doctor's painful pronouncement changed everything for them but not the love they had for each other; it just refocused and strengthened it.
Oh, and on a lighter note Codey had a great sense of humor too. You can judge for yourself as he talks about being at a party in this story: "It didn’t really seem like much of a party. It was just some friends hanging out, eating pizza, drinking sodas, and scratching their balls. I smiled as I remembered the day Jeremy was wondering why, when a bunch of guys get together, there’s so much ball scratching. Personally, I’d never noticed, but after he mentioned it, I noticed that it was true. Now, whenever I was in a group of guys and the ball scratching starts, I have a hard time not laughing. Jeremy and I had finally come to the conclusion that it was like yawning. If someone yawns, soon the people around him begin to yawn. If some guy scratches, the guys around him start to itch too. It was contagious."
Gone From Daylight Series; Comicality (Comicality's Shack Out Back - Gay Authors); 14, 15, 16. If Gay Teen Science Fiction with Blood Sucking Vampires is what you like, Comicality writes the very best, this time with a really likable 14 year old gay boy named Justin as the main character. It's been said that suffering builds character. And there are few that know suffering better than young Justin. Only 14 years old and gay, he has found an easy way out. A suicidal tendency that he is hoping will bring an end to his misery. But when he meets a mysterious boy at the end of Navy Pier one dark evening...he is given an alternative. One that will give him purpose, and set in motion the events that will lead to his ultimate destiny....in a world not like our own. Some sex and violence, well, duh. . . .
Heart of The Tree; Graeme; (Awesome Dude); 18-21; The Tree, a Moreton Bay Fig Tree, was old. It had watched over many generations of local inhabitants. Settlers moving west from Sydney, Australia, recognizing that the area was suitable for farming, had formed the small township of Mourton around The Tree. Even then, the residents recognized something special in The Tree and preserved the land around it as a park. The children enjoyed clambering through the gnarled roots, up between the multiple, twisted trunks, and along the huge, curving branches.
Huw Jones (AwesomeDude); 14-16; Set in the late 1960s in South Wales,
United Kingdom, Huw Jones, a lad at the tender age of 14, has had a childhood
strife with traumatic experiences of pain and loss. At 11 years old he
experiences an incident of unwanted sexual contact by an older boy. At the
age of 12, Huw's father - a guide, mentor, and friend - was taken away from him
and his family in a tragic workplace accident at the coal mine, leaving behind
only fond memories of the times they were together. After his father's death,
Huw's childhood ceased to continue and he began developing a burdensome sense of
responsibility to his family, and the familial conflict between his mother and
his loving paternal grandparents results in an estranged relationship.
However, Huw's story really begins with the Aberfan tragedy of 1966, where a massive landslide of colliery mine waste swept down the mountainside and into the village, taking with it 144 lives. Among them were his beloved younger brother and sister during their day at school. Rife with grief and loss, his mother's sanity slowly slips away to the point where he can no longer take care of her. Because he has no other known relatives, Huw is forced to leave his institutionalized mother and his home in Aberfan when he is placed in the care of religious, dictatorial, and heartless foster parents, Mr. and Mrs. Salisbury. One good result of this placement is the friendship he makes with his foster brother, a kind-hearted boy his age named Tomos. Huw also finds solace in the opportunities he has to stay with his school friend Lewis. When Mr. Salisbury violently beats Huw and Tomos in what he wrongly perceives to be a display of homosexuality, Huw escapes, resolving to end his despair, grief, loss, and pain by jumping into a weir. He is saved, but soon after moves far away to live with an aunt who he has never met, effectively ending his connection to the two boys, Tomas and Lewis.
Huw's journey, however, is far from over as his second chance at life comes from that timely rescue from death. Driven by hiraeth - a Welsh term with an approximate English definition of a nostalgic, wistful, and steadfast longing to return to his homeland of Wales - and afflicted with the burden of a gaping sense of loss, Huw plows onward along a bleak journey to fill in that void, all the while in search of love, family, joy, and identity. Read this beautiful story to find out if he is successful. P. S. He is. There's some implied sex, but just no details, ha-ha. Review by Lil' Octopus, Feb. 2013
Joel; Ted Louis (Ted Louis); 12 - 18; Physically and sexually abused by his father, then locked in a garden shed without food, Joel spends the night digging his way out through the hard dirt floor with only his hands and a sharp stick. As he reenters the house, he is confronted by the sight of his abuser shooting and killing his mother. After being threatened by his father, the traumatized boy flees the house and wanders in a daze. Crane Johnson, a wealthy twenty-nine year old bachelor, volunteers time coaching with a policeman friend in the policemen's baseball league for teenage boys. At the completion of one of the team's games, he discovers a lone boy about twelve years old sitting in the bleachers. The boy, dirty, disheveled and unable to speak, appears to be traumatized and can't or won't reveal who he is or where he lives. The boy attaches himself to Crane. Later Crane discovers that the boy, now known as Joel, has three brothers who were found by police abandoned and locked in a closet of their home. Set in the beautiful and peaceful South Texas hill country, Crane uses his wealth to fight official corruption and prejudice to keep Joel (who turns out to be gay) and his brothers. The only down side to this story is that it is a little slow in its development.
Just Hit Send; Grasshopper (iomfats); 15 - 30; Two depressed and lonely 15 year-old boys, blond haired and green eyed Jordon and curly black haired and blue eyed Danny meet in an Internet gay teen chat room and their lives are forever changed. But this love at first contact Florida relationship is complicated by two major factors: First of all, Danny is disabled and mainly has to use a wheelchair, though he fights for all he's worth to be able to walk around on his braces. But Jordon doesn't see a disabled teen then man; he just sees the person he loves with all his heart. And secondly, Jordon's father is a religious homophobe, and his dark shadow haunts much of the tale. The story takes you through Jordan and Danny's High School Years, College Years, Interim Years and their Happy Years, from 15 to 30. Beginning in their college years, these two boys begin the building of what will eventually be a very large and unusual family, but one that is filled with tons of love. As the boys head into their college years, you will find appropriate descriptions of their sexual activities normal to that age. This emotional story is Grasshopper's Tour de Force, his crowning achievement out of all his exceptional stories. Choose this story!
Kenny; Charlie or Charlieje (Nifty); 12 and 14 to old age; This is the story of Kenny and Charlie and their life together as gay lovers beginning when they were 12 and 14 respectively all the way up to old age, grandchildren and death. Though as the author tells his readers, he started to write just "another erotic story" in 1999 it turned into something very special and somewhat autobiographical as the memories of his own life came flooding back. The story is a mixture of fact and fantasy. I (Gary Lynn) really related to this story because it deals with growing up as a gay or bisexual teen at the same time I did, in the repressive 1950's. Though it is very difficult to come out as a gay teen now, it was virtually impossible back then due to suffocating ignorance and homophobia and because there was no Internet, meaning that there was no access to support or accurate information on what it meant to be gay or bisexual. Back in the 50's and 60's nobody knew anything about homosexuality except that it was thought to be a mental illness, and/or a choice and a disgusting depravity. This repressive atmosphere led both gay young men in this story to get themselves into straight marriages so that they could be "normal"; one marriage was a disaster while the other turned out surprisingly well because the woman had a big heart by letting her husband keep his gay partner in his life. There is a lot of explicit sex as the boys get it on really fast, ha-ha, but the greatest interest is how they both somehow survive through all the decades of their lives despite all the odds against them. This was a story that was hard to put down. Another note of interest is the abundance of jobs in those decades seconded by my own experience, in stark contrast to the scarcity of work in the USA today (2011).
Life From A
Distance-Ben; Dewey (DeweyWriter);
Birth to 13; How does Ben, a 12-year-old boy handle the sudden
death of his identical twin, Mike, in a bicycling accident that both he and his
parents feel that somehow he is responsible for? But it really wasn't his
fault. And how
does this all affect the relationship with Ian who was both of the boys' best
friend? The twins, who went through life almost as one person because they were
so close, realized soon after their 12th birthday and their budding puberty, that they were probably gay or bisexual. But though they both
thought Ian, who was a few months older, was really hot they decided together to
treat him like a brother and therefore off limits for any romance for either of
them. But, then the accident at the canal interrupted their lives a few months later and the
heart of the story plays out.
I really loved this intense and emotional coming of age gay love story because in spite of the problems Ben has to go through in his young life, there was a happy ending - think boyfriend. You're really going to like Ian's parents Ed and Liz, Dadtwo and Momtwo to Ben and Mike, who turn out to be the people who seem to know exactly what to say and do when the distraught Ben has thoughts of suicide and in all the other many difficult moments in the story. The stress in the tale is driven by Ben's own more distant parents who don't handle the death well at all and are constantly fighting with each other as a result. The shouting hurts Ben deeply and drives him to run away, several times actually, and with the help of the police or other friends, sometimes winds up staying with Ian and his family for a time. Ian's family includes Ian's younger brother, Murray nicknamed Rayray, who is a good guy and plays an important supporting role in the story. Not every younger sibling is a pain in the behind. Now this is where the love that Ian's family have for each other and Ben come to the rescue of the twin who was left behind as Ben so many times feels. Now read this great story as it shows how Ben is able to deal with the immense pain of having both just lost his twin, the glue which seemingly holds his life together and also the possible divorce of his parents. There is only a minimal amount of sex, but enough to give the needed context to the story. Enjoy!
Matthew Figures It Out; Ehman Penn (Dabeagle); 14 & 15; This story is a compelling page-turner that you won't want to put down. It took me just 3 nights to finish the 23-chapter story (OK, so I'm a slow reader, ha-ha). 14 year-old shy, friendless and lonely Matthew Jordon grew up as a city kid in Sausalito, California where his dad worked for a bank across the bridge in San Francisco. Unbeknownst to Matt, his parents move the family to the very Southern more rural area outside of Charlotte, North Carolina not because they have to for work related reasons, but so that their only child can get a chance to sort of start over and make friends in a new environment. And Matt comes through as he makes two friends in the first month at his new high school - fellow freshman, good-natured and brainy Tommy Johnson, the son of a college professor and athletic, universally-liked and good-looking sophomore Chris Briggs, son of the ill-tempered high school baseball coach. Tommy becomes the supportive younger brother and best friend that Matt had never had. And as for Chris, at this young age Matt has admitted to himself that he is attracted to him and therefore Matt figures out that he is very-likely gay. But that turns out not to be a big problem at home because of his very loving and accepting parents. But then it gets complicated; Chris has a girlfriend, an alcoholic mother and an abusive father and both parents are homophobic. And Matt does figure things out as the dark secrets in his new boyfriend's family get exposed one by one. This story centers on the developing relationship between Matt and Chris; it lets you know who these 14 and 15 year old teens are and what they have to deal with inside - their fears, insecurities, strengths and weaknesses. And yes some of those thoughts center on sex, which is normal. There are some descriptions of their limited sex that are presented, but if you're reading this story for only the sex scenes, you're going to be very, very disappointed, ha-ha. It's not that kind of a story.
Middle School; Cole Parker (AwesomeDude); 13; How can Marc tell his best friend that he's in love with him when he's sure that he's straight? And then how does he get up the courage to say, "Mom, Dad, I think I’m gay.”
Mother's Gift; Boudreaux (Story Lover); 15 to 18; Cotton is the new kid in town on the first day of high school. He is an old hand at that, though, because he has already moved eight times in his life. With every new location, there is a time for adjustment. Unfortunately, the move isn’t the only thing he has to adjust to this time. Cotton is growing up and noticing people in ways he never thought of before. What is going on with him, and how will it affect his life in yet another new town? To get to this story the webmaster at Story Lover requires you to jump through a series of hoops and maybe even hire a lawyer to translate all the legalize, ha-ha. So after clicking on the above link, you first need to jet to the bottom of that entrance page and click on "Enter Site". Then there on the Home Page in the left column, click on Hosted Authors. In the new window, fly down to where Boudreaux is indicated, open to his stories and select "Mother's Gift". Actually all of Boudreaux's stories are good. Enjoy.
My Only Escape; Comicality (Comicality's Shack Out Back - Gay Authors); 14-15; My Only Escape is a highly respected classic from Comicality dealing with physical and mental parental abuse and more. . . . Zach has friends. He makes decent grades. He's what most people would consider a 'good boy'. But Zach hides a painful secret from the rest of the world. It goes deeper than the cuts, bruises, and scars, his father puts on him. And unlike those minor injuries. . .it's never going away. Zach is gay, and he's just recently fallen for someone who makes it hard to hide it anymore. Will Zach find the love and strength he's looking for in Brody's arms? Or will his father's daily verbal and physical abuse cause his heart to collapse once and for all?
New Brother; Graeme (DeweyWriter); 14, 15, 16; Adam was kicked out of his home because he was gay. In this story we find out who his true friends are and how he finds a new family. Sometimes Love does indeed win out.
It's Only Me From Across the Sea
(iomfats); Jake 11-14, Pete 13-16; This is a three part story about boys
at an English Public School, a private boarding school in the British tradition
of sport and academic excellence.
The hero, Jake, is quietly progressing through an uneventful puberty, marked by chastity and silent masturbation after lights-out. Again in the best British school tradition, there would be sex if he wanted it. Every school had its tart. But Jake isn't that sort of boy... He is the scrum-half, the star of the House rugby team. They sing bawdy songs in the showers and swap girly mag's. They aren't, you know... well they just aren't!
Then to his consternation friendship, love and hero-worship collide, and that accounts for three separate boys! All suddenly wrapped in confusion, embarrassment and...love.
The second story is a prequel to the first, so you must read it second, not first or you will... well anyway, don't read it first! The complications that come with love and the realisation of one's homosexuality are not helped when the only other gay boy to identify with, the school tart, is such a revolting role model. Of course the school can have more than one tart, and that just adds to the confusion, particularly for the narrator. He is another who is trying to reconcile himself to his sexuality while surrounded by five hundred more or less attractive boys. One of whom he desperately wants to know better, a lot better!
In the third part we see the boys attempting to sort themselves out in a whirl of emotions and confusions.
Was school really like this? Well if it wasn't, it should have been, and with authors like iomfats willing to show their hearts on their sleeve and able to more than entertain us with tales of gentle non-pornographic love... then it can be again. It is certainly how I would prefer to remember school. Read it. I enjoyed it. I think you will too. Some sex. Review by Solsticeman (February, 2013)
Nights and Days; Mihangel Hwntw; (iomfats); 15, 16; The little light inside of Justin that sustains him dims and weakens day after day, night after night. Only his friend Robert, and perhaps a small part of his mother, are the only people keeping him from falling apart as he constantly has to put up with being used as a slave in terms of the work he's given and in terms of his families treatment of him as a second class citizen in both his home and the Anglican church because his stepfather is the vicar. His father is unknown to him and he is literally - although not the most graceful term - a bastard. But one day, his light grows a lot brighter when he meets an attractive and intelligent gay boy named Gavin on a train ride who it turns out has many if not most of the same interests as Justin. This intellectually stimulating read explores the concepts of Fate, God, Christianity, while stylistically playing with oppositions, dualities, poetry, and even treating us (the reader) with a clever ending. Review by Lil' Octopus, Sept. 2012.
On The Wire; Chris James; at iomfats
or Awesome Dude;
15 to 18; Alan is a cop... and a survivor of sexual abuse
when young. That gives him an insight into how abusers work, and a determination
to put them behind bars. He persuades his employers to provide a modest budget
for his new department, and his 4 man team is up and running.
Austin on the other hand is a cute gay kid with big problems of rejection at home and an Internet friend who invites him to the city... to join a ring of beautiful, OK, there's no nice way to say this, underage boy prostitutes, providing specialised relief for the city's wealthier citizens. That's when things start to go wrong. It's also when Alan identifies a number of the kids in this ring, and determines to catch their handlers.
The story is a graphic warning of the consequences of trusting "friends" on the web, and a warning to the predators that no matter how well run the service... you are likely to get caught in the long run. There are just too many loose ends to keep it all together.
How the story plays out, whether the good guys or the bad guys win, and who gets hurt in the process, I leave to the reader to discover. It is an exciting and well-written story of cops and robbers (well some cute kids are robbed of something irreplaceable).
Whether Alan manages to work his way through the problems left from his abused childhood... well that too I leave you to discover for yourselves. Oh yes, and if you are young and thinking of leaving home to meet your new best friend... read this nine chapter plus epilogue story first! Some sex. Review by Solsticeman and Gary Lynn. (February, 2013)
One Life; Ryan Keith (AwesomeDude); 17, 18; This love story between two first year Canadian University students begins with a boy-meets-boy scenario. But then it manifests into an emotional tale that allows the reader to understand that gay monogamous love is real, it is equivalent to straight monogamous love and that true love lasts forever. Delve into the lives of Jaylin and Tyler, two boys from starkly different worlds, as they find true love and become one essence, one being, sharing one life. Review by Lil' Octopus, Sept. 2012.
Scholarship; Ian John Copeland; Smashwords; 11, 12, 13; On the surface this moderately long story is about life in a quality but strict mostly secular 1960’s British Boarding School in Cornwall, England for boys of primary school age (USA comparison). It is located in a very beautiful coastal setting, where the development of overly close relationships between the boys was highly frowned on, especially between boys of different grades or forms.
But really the focus of the story is what was going on in the relationship, deeply and beautifully detailed, between 11-year-old Sacha (5th Form) and 12-year-old Pip (6th form), part of which concerned the very innocent, subtle and furtive physical dimensions of the relationship. There is no sex in the story, but there doesn’t have to be since the story is about the intense relationship. And this is why this very British English story is so attractive and impressive as an easy to read analysis by the author into the intimate details and complications in the boys' relationship and all the misunderstandings mostly due to their young ages and backgrounds. The whole aspect of being attracted to someone of the same sex and what to do about it, if anything, at that age in a repressive environment is seriously and thoughtfully looked into. Remember that homosexuality was erroneously thought to be a mental illness and a depravity, and homosexual sex or sodomy was against the law in those times, most everywhere.
I send thanks to queerschool.com for directing me to this beautiful story, but a story that ends on a serious and sad note. Sometimes relationships made at 12 are not made to last. Young boys change into teens and move on, and learn from their past experiences, hopefully. Enjoy! (Dec. 2012)
Shades of Grayat Awesome Dude or iomfats by Solsticeman; 13; This is a beautiful love story of two 13 year old boys, Jeff and Gray, at a British Grammar School in the 1950s. They live in a Welsh mining village whose tough culture would ordinarily be unsympathetic to their love. They live before Stonewall and Wolfenden... the future for two gay teenagers looks very bleak... but they have Gray's mother. Gray's mother seems to understand them and removes obstacles from their way. Perhaps she can make it work for them. We can only wonder what motivates her, and makes her the true hero of the story. Some sex. (February 2013) [milkboys.org was the source for the above picture of two young boys kissing]
The Girl For Me;
Failte200 (iomfats); 16, 17, 18; Kevin is the girl-chasing senior varsity
fullback with only barely passing grades while Daniel is a junior Advanced
Placement brainiac kid who is also the back-up quarterback on the same high
school varsity football team in New Hampshire. Kevin is attracted to a
beautiful girl he sees at a party in a mini-skirt... called Dani... with an i.
And wow, those legs! But then he is shocked to realise that it is actually
his fellow teammate in drag. But that doesn't make Dani any less
attractive for some strange and troubling reason. But Kevin is smart
enough to recognize the perfect blackmail situation which could help get his
grades up. So Daniel or Dani becomes Kevin's unwilling tutor and his
grades in fact improve. But then the plot really gets interesting since
Kevin continues to be attracted to her or him and is mystified because he's not
gay. Or is he? Wait until you meet Kevin's wealthy but likable
uncle, the man who has Kevin's future in his hands.
Their school is tolerant, the teachers more or less so, but the headmaster is a Neanderthal. There is plenty of scope for crisis and misunderstanding and Failte handles the plot beautifully. Well written, carefully plotted and with rounded characters that you will empathise with, I heartily recommend this 17 Chapter novella. In fact if you, your brother, son or friend have questions about the differences between gay, transgender and the whole deal about cross-dressing then I think you definitely should read this story... or give it to your mum or mom to read! Every now and then a feel-good story comes along that makes me, well yes, feel good. This is one. Some sex. This story was originally posted at Fiction Press. Review by Solsticeman and Gary Lynn. (April, 2013)
Two Boys; Rocco Paperiello (CrackerWriter); 14 to 21; What are the odds that in 1959 near Philadelphia, Pennsylvania an almost 14-year old majorly undersized and late-blooming Italian-American white boy from a middle class family would meet and make friends with a poor soon to be orphaned 15-year old normal sized but physically handicapped black boy? Slim, right? And then they find out that they're both gay? Even slimmer. And what are the chances that the friendship between Rocco and Jade develops little by little into a full blown romance, engagement and even marriage back in those Neanderthal years of the 1960s when most everybody thought that homosexuality was a serious mental illness and to be found out that you were gay was like an instant social and economic death sentence? And what are the odds that these kids could figure out on their own through books, doctors, priests and friends that homosexuality wasn't really a sin, a choice or an illness? OK, the slimmest. And to top off everything, Rocco was a religious Roman Catholic where the goal seems to be to make everybody feel as guilty as possible and where their iron grip of a doctrine considers homosexuality the worst of the worst of sins.
Unfinished Symphony; Alan Dwight
(Awesome Dude); 14-15; Richard is seven when he loses his father to a
drug dealing charge and a prison shiv. He loses his mother to a drug
overdose when he is 9. With a three year older brother Tim and their baby
brother Joey, he is adopted by his poor and elderly grandmother. He is 14 when
the story proper starts. The family is poor and he needs to earn money. He
is hired to do the gardening for an elderly gay couple, and his life changes
when he meets Mark the 14 year old son of their wealthy neighbours. Mark
has liberated parents and a pool and one thing leads to another as they do.
That is, until love intrudes to turn it into a gentle tale of love between our
hard-done-by hero and his more fortunate mate who has an unending stock of dirty
jokes. Life could hardly get any better. But. . . Mark has a journey to
take and this time Richard cannot go with him. An urgency develops, a need
to fit everything in.
This need to fit everything in during their last summer results in the author calling a spade a spade and the frequent use of the f-word grates a little while underlining the urgency of their situation. Well perhaps in their situation you too would swear occasionally. This is a beautifully told tale of love found and lost. The sex is gentle, the love genuine. Review by Solsticeman. (March, 2013)
W. A. R.; Jeff Wilson (Nifty); 13 - 21; I was very impressed with the depth and character development of this engrossing tale. The story is told from the point of view of the main character, Billy Roberts or William Aaron Roberts (W. A. R.). His story is filled with high and low moments as Billy has to confront so many crises from the age of 13 to 21, many of which are the result of the fact that he is gay as he eventually figures out. The first part of the story deals with how Billy is very much involved with the care of his grandmother who has suffered from a stroke and requires constant care by his mother who had to leave her nursing job. It also deals with the stress that a family feels when it has to take care of a stroke victim and then her sudden death. But along the way, Billy's feelings toward his best friend Brett are bubbling just beneath the surface. At this young age, those feelings can be confusing. Hormones are running rampant, emotions are always on edge and there is nothing more important in the world than . . . your best friend. Oh and yes, Billy, though very smart, has a rather short temper - which gets him in a lot of trouble. Good thing he's good at apologizing, ha-ha. Parts 2, 3, 4, 5 and the final part 6 deal with a whole lot more . . . how do you handle sexual abuse? How do you handle the fact that your two best friends hate each other? How do you handle the fact that your mother has suddenly become a homophobic Methodist? How do you deal with the death of your father? There's a whole lot more to this story than first meets the eye. So read and enjoy the ride. Jeff handles some really sticky situations rather well. Yes, there is sex in this story, but I believe it is a minor, but integral and an appropriate part of the story. Parts of this review are based on a review by Tarheel Writer. Turns out that we both liked this story a lot, so why reinvent the wheel, so to speak.
Stories I'm Reading Now
Everything Will Turn Out Alright by Cy-kun
Charlie by Hamen Cheese (I really like this story - review coming soon)
An English Teen, Circumcised in the USA by Riley Jericho (author to finish this story soon)
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queerschool.com - Quality Gay Fiction About Gay Teenage Boys at School and Away From School. You'll find first rate reviews on this site.
tarheelwriter.com - Here are the gay themed stories and movies that Tarheel Writer really liked. These are good reviews. Categories; Complete Stories and On Going Stories - High School, Sci-Fi/Fantasy, Young Friends; Short Stories; Fan Fiction, Movies and More
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Great Books for Gay Young Adults From Age 12 on Up
Absolutely, Positively Not . . . by David Larochelle - Age 16 - Grade A+ - Click Here to read the customer reviews at Amazon
I'll Get There. It Better Be Worth The Trip by John Donovan - Age 13 - Grade A+ - Click Here to read the customer reviews at Amazon (1)
Thinking Straight by Robin Reardon - Age 16 - Grade A+ - Click Here to read the customer reviews at Amazon
The God Box by Alex Sanchez - Age 17/18 - Grade A - Click Here to read the customer reviews at Amazon
David Inside Out by Lee Bantle - Age 16 - Grade B+ - Click Here to read the customer reviews at Amazon
The Misfits by James Howe - Age 12 - Grade B+ - Click Here to read the customer reviews at Amazon.
(1) Published in 1969, this beautiful work has the distinction of being the first young adult novel to deal with teen homosexuality.
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